Gods Voice.

Written 08.07.2010

So trying to write daily is every bit as difficult as I thought it would be. I feel as if my blogs are going to become more of just ramblings of whatever random thoughts fly through my head as I write, and I'm not entirely excited for that. To be honest, for the past couple of days I have written two blogs -one that I realized was total crap about 3/4 of the way through and another which I actually finished - and even though it may be every bit as crappy as the first I wrote - I finished it, so I published it.

I think this month is going to be less of a good exercise on writing, and a really good exercise on trying to tune into God and hear Him daily. But what does it feel like to hear God? I mean, is it an audible voice that is booming and sounds like James Earl Jones? Cause if that's the case - I've never heard from God.

When I pray I listen, I really do - I'll sit there and say nothing for long periods of time, and I hear nothing. But I have heard God, not with my ears though - with my heart.

I can remember specifically when I was praying about possibly pursuing a relationship with Jen. I was on this kick where I wanted to be single and I in no way wanted to even entertain the possibility of dating anyone. We had been hanging out for a few months and I started to develop some strong, undeniable feelings for her - So I told her that I didn't think we should hang out cause I was starting to have feelings for her. Thinking back on that - I have no idea how she ever went for me after I said that. Anyway, after that I started praying for a relationship for the first time in my life - instead of asking for something from God like I always had before, I just asked God to speak to me about it. After a couple weeks of doing this I felt this peace come over me, then for the first time in a couple of years I actually had the desire to be with a girl, and it was clear to me it was Jen. So I pursued it, and I will never regret that decision.

So I guess what I'm getting at, is that God speaks to us all differently - I'm not saying He won't speak to you audibly, but I am saying that He will speak to you. It may not be the way you want, but you'll know when He does.