Sufficient.

I watched the documentary "The Devil Came on Horseback" tonight, it's a documentary on the genocide going on in Darfur. I've been well aware of the genocide in Darfur and a member of "Save Darfur" for years - but what does any of that mean?

Tonight after finishing the film Jen stood up, looked around and said, "I want to go there." "Darfur?" I responded, "No, Chad. I want to do something to help those displaced." I was instantly negative and cynical about it saying that there's not much we can do and even if we did help the refugees that have escaped to eastern Chad, what they really want is to go back to a safe home - but our government is more concerned with the almighty buck than about that.

The more I thought about it, the more I realized how on track Jen was - I mean, why get so wrapped up in the endless maze of politics when you can help people now? Why allow the indifference of politicians dictate whether I still help? Why allow myself to be so easily defeated? I can think of no acceptable answers to any of those.

See, it's easy to find myself in this world wrapped up in money and politics and so many other things, that I forget whom I'm serving - God.

I've read the Bible ( and payed attention during the interesting parts ) enough to know that there was never a man of God that stood up and said "My government is doing nothing no matter how many letters I write - so, evil prevails." I actually see story after story of the exact opposite - God prevailing even when man thought He couldn't.

So I don't know what I can do, and I don't know what God wants me to do - but I want to be that man, the man that isn't defeated because the whole world gives up - the man that lives like he actually believes God is sufficient.